starting next wednesday.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

i so dont want it to happen but it will be happening... damn me damn him damn everyone.

n i think, the saddest truth about frenship is... when someone thought u r still treating them nicely, but actually, inside your heart u didnt even feel like wanna talk to them at all...

sigh, im such a mean person.

Current Music : Ella Fitzgerald - It Don't Mean a Thing

to be a high society person?

u know, for example, dat*k, d*tin, or any p*gawai?

remember the earlier post which i wrote about some datin who cant remember my chinese name n die die made me tell her my english name?

so, today she called.

"CAN I SPEAK TO FOOK H** PLEASE?"

i fainted. after all the hoo hahs now u tell me u can remember my chinese name?

Current Music : Frank Sinatra - the Lady is a Tramp

very long ago, while i was out with my frens camping in the woods...

we were very badly bitten by all the stupid mosquitos... n we cannot do anything except keep spraying insect repellent on ourselves.

n then i suddenly thought... the best way to revenge on those stupid mosquitos, is to...

SPRAY INSECT REPELLENT ON THEM!!!

so they will blardy have no frens for their entire life!

how cool is that, muahahahahahahahaa

Current Music : Garbage - Stupid Girl

come on starrywicked, get over it, ppl r not obliged to treat u nice all the time.

no matter how nice u treat other ppl, no matter how much u have always be there for someone, ppl are not realy obliged to treat u nice in return.

so, does it mean i have to stop treating ppl nice? dont give a fuck to ppl around when they have problems?

NO. HELL NO.

i cant change the way u wanna treat me, i also wont do that. same like i wont change myself just bcoz of u. im proud of myself being so full of love n u can continue being a mean bitch n let everybody hate u. i prefer living without having to care how to make myself look superior in public; or not giving a damn how u feel after i throw mean words to u. that is just not me.

i dont like to see ppl sad or angry by the words i said or the thing i did. i think before i do anything.

ooooo so sensual nia.

Current Music : Bjork - All Is Full of Love

just now while i was rendering my works, u know each frame gona take a while those kind of thing, i manage to chat a bit with my UK silai fren.

i have known this silai more than... 20 years liao la actually, since standard 1 wo. so we talk about basically everything also.

so while we were chating just now, silai suddenly ask me : do u actually have a target?

i was somehow dumbfounded... i dont.

i really dont have lo... maybe every year at 1st of january i will sort of set some new year resolution but then u know la, this kind of thing... very fast will forget one right? LOL

at the moment... im just trying to... focus on my work a bit since i think im still underperforming n it is just not good for the company in the long run. since love life n friendship also both not happening very well, so i guess only can focus on work la anyway, ha ha ha.

so, just keep living lo, what to do?

Current Music : M-Flo - Life is Beautiful

i had a nice dream last night. basically it was about me fetching my mom USING MY OWN CAR everywhere n we did many many things together.

just like normal days.

note that the keyword there is MY OWN CAR ok?

so i woke up this morning as usual remembering the whole story in the dream. n i had the gut feeling that i should go n buy my car's number plate. oh in case u dont know or u have forgotten, your deary starrywicked does buy toto, magnum n 1+3D n lottery *blush* who doesnt wanna be rich right? spend some money on 4 ekor might have some extra income ma.

so i went to BAO my car plate number... since it has 4 different number, so i spend rm24 to BAO the number. means if any of the 24 combinations of the 4 digits of my car plate "opened", then i will kena the number.

n u know what?! I REALLY KENA-ED MAGNUM AGAIN!!!!! actually i kena-ed a few times this year already, ha ha ha, proven a good year for Libran just like those taiwanese fortune-telling shows were saying, HAH!! 

with that rm200, i can... i can...

erm... what can i do with rm200 nowadays?

Current Music : Rachel Stevens - I Got the Money

i nearly had the urge to tell someone that...

"every step i take is to bring me closer to u"

ala Zhang zhi-yi

Current Music : Namie Amuro - Can You Celebrate?

for some reason, currently your lovely starrywicked has to entertain some local datin n dato for their projects... revamping their toilets :|

but luckily they are hotel toilets la, so once in a while when go to see the hotels can still see naked couples making out in the corridor bcoz cant wait until go into the room ma, which is still entertaining so actually im not complaining here ok?

then today i ma as usual have to call datin to make appointment lo. of coz as usual also she made me waited for her in her office for more than 15 mins la, kan people is high class high society people where my time is never important to them? n as usual i cannot do anything but to wait there like an idiot n whenever she asks whether am i ok i have to act like im so ok n i wont fuck your mother's ass hole till it explode la right?

SO, after all the ordeals of negotiating with them n seeing the dingy unrenovated hotel toilets... datin suddenly asks me... WHAT IS YOUR NAME BY THE WAY?

so i have been calling n dealing with u for weeks n u still havent get my name.

nevermind, kan people is high class high society people? i just tell him again im FOOK H**, n u can blardy hell call me Chan.

"so can i call u by FOOK?"

WHO IN THE RIGHT MIND WILL WANT TO CALL A PERSON BY HIS CHINESE MIDDLE NAME?

like, u can call Andy Lau Tak Wah by Tak Wah or Andy chai or Andy but u insist want to call him by TAK?

funny right?

then she insisted she cannot remember FOOK H**, "it is too hard to remember" says her. "i do remember your brother is FOOK M**, but FOOK H** is too much for me too remember"

so u r a high class ppl n u cant remember a simple 2 syllable name *take eyes out n roll on rollette*

"do u have an english name? i prefer calling people by english name"

n actually starrywicked cannot be called starrywicked on the street right? starrywicked is sort of my undercover identity right? of no choices left, i told her my english name which i seldom use.

"my english name is MARVIN, datin"

"SEE??? english name is so much easier to remember" screams datin.

2 syllable english name is so much easier to remember than a 2 syllable chinese name *take note n tiak on my wall*

n why MARVIN? i adopted this name since i was very young due to my favourite-est band FRENTE! has named their debut album MARVIN THE ALBUM.

the naming process is pretty straight forward right?

Current Music : Alicia Keys - You Don't Know My Name

Your Score: Niki/Jessica Sanders

You scored 33 Idealism, 62 Nonconformity, 25 Nerdiness

there was once when i was still young n i sort of formed a "band" with 2 of my best frens, alvin sim n yow sook han :p we havent even name our band yet n we're all seperated bcoz we have done with our studies here in kuantan. such a short lived band, ha ha. but we manage to come out with an original song, though.

n we have performed it in our form 6's graduation dinner along with 3 other songs. too bad during that era digital camera and utube are not even there yet so im afriad no clips can be put up here, what a shame. i remember i had a VHS to our performance though, ha ha, but it is no way to be found la of coz.

to pay tribute to our short lived "band" (im still not sure whether should i call it a band though, coz we're only playing for fun) im to put up the lyrics of the song that sookhan wrote... n of coz the wonderful melody was created by mr alvin sim himself.

me? oh i play tambourine n sing the song only lo :p im not as talented mah.

[Untitled] by Unnamed Band

Someday, You'll wish you're always eighteen and you'll reminise
The best thing you ever done
In the best time of your life

Last time, you tried to have everything you wish and want
But (then) you're not aware
It's easier said than done

There's only one thing that you ever want now
Photographed memories of your life
Traces that stay and always last like stars shine in the the sky
(and you'll be pleased and gratified)

We were lost, we were found, we were blessed and cursed
Joyful, sorrow, love and hatred
Are only some of the things that we shared
We'll walk (down the road) together
We run,
We were seperated

Once more, vivid memories will always be remembered...

hope sookhan will not mind at all for i put up the lyrics she wrote without asking her first, he he. n sadly, i actually cant remember how to sing some of the parts already :p sigh sigh sigh, old liao lo.

Current Music : [Untitled] - Unnamed Band